So, I finally hit the breaking point. I couldn't take it anymore. I was tired of being angry 24/7. I did something I never thought I would do. So, I decided to talk to her. I stepped up and asked for us to start over; a clean slate. I wouldn't say bad things about her to friends or online. She would keep her boyfriend out of our situation and she wouldn't throw me anymore curve balls. And so far, this has worked great! We actually talked for about 15 minutes when I dropped my boy off on Tuesday. We even hugged in front of him. I'm hoping that showed him I'm not mad at her anymore. Last week was the best week I had so far. I wasn't angry. I wasn't obsessing over our situation. I hope this continues.
I'm still lonely though. I don't know how I made it that month alone at the apartment. I guess survival instincts kicked in. I've been at my parents for two weeks. They have been in Florida this week and I feel so alone. I'm not anywhere near ready to date again. But it would be great to find a girl who would like to cuddle up and watch a movie together. Do you know someone looking for the same? Send them my way? That's what I miss the most. The physical contact.
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